Outreach professionals' response to Fearing the Holidays, by Kim Mortellite.
Dawn C. Kepler's Response
I want to begin by commending Kim on starting life with Aaron with her eyes wide open. She is being self-aware and proactive in her examination of what her future will be like with Aaron.
Deciding on one religion for children is easier for the kids, but I never said it is easy for the adults. Kim raises some excellent topics. Let's consider them.
Growing up, Christmas was an "elaborate celebration," not particularly religious, but that celebration was most likely emotionally connected to family and loved ones. That's a lot of meaning for one day--even one month--to carry. Additionally, Christmas is a national holiday embedded in every aspect of American public life.
The first issue Kim must face is her very real sense of loss. It is important to realize that this is her feeling as she anticipates raising her children in a different way than she herself was, and different than she had expected. Ideally she will not transmit the sense of loss to her children. But in not perpetuating it, she must recognize what she is losing and take care of her own needs. Kim should identity the core elements she misses and look for ways of replacing them. Additionally, she can invigorate and strengthen existing practices that feed her emotionally.
To replace a practice you want to discontinue or reduce, identify its most basic components. Say, Kim bakes Christmas cookies each year with her mother and it is a tradition filled with memories. It involves time with mom, remembered recipes, good smells and good tastes. We look to have all these things.
They can keep baking, including make those Santa and reindeer shapes. But they can add dogs, birds and palm trees. Or get Hanukkah cutters. Give the Santa cookies to non-Jewish family and friends and keep the array of other shapes for her Jewish family. This practice can continue when there are kids with the message that, "We make cookies for everyone we love!"
Or change the baking date to May and make blintzes for Shavuot. Be creative. Look for solutions that feel good to you. Give them time to become a tradition.
To modify an existing practice, again be creative. Do you have Christmas brunch at Aunt Dorothy's house? Is it the only time Kim really sees Aunt Dorothy all year? Create a different activity with her. Take her out to dinner on her birthday. Or create a day just for the two of you, March 3. Or just make a point of seeing her more than once a year! Don't reduce all your love-filled gatherings to one mad month.
Be creative, be patient, it takes time, repetition and humor to create new traditions. Be willing to try things out in the spirit of fun and adventure.
Kim wisely chose not to over-stress herself when she realized she was trying to please everyone. Don't perform for others. December is a demanding month; give yourself some couple-time.
Finally, although Kim is looking forward to coming years when Christmas and Hanukkah don't overlap and they can "fully share both holidays," she should not create an illusion of equal time. Complete fairness and equality is an ideal, rarely a reality. Raising kids will throw new questions at Kim and Aaron. Just go with the flow, ask for help, be patient with yourself and be ready to be surprised by hours of family happiness at unanticipated moments and traditions not yet dreamed of.